Monday, May 30, 2011

Dad spoke of Ally last week at church

Dad had to speak at church last week. He was suppose to be talking about the former bishop. My mom told me that he almost took the whole meeting time. Most of you don't know that my dad and Ally where very close. Besides me and Josh, I think that my dad really took her death the hardest. My dad came to the hospital for the 4 months that Ally was in the NICU. He would read her a story every night. He would look forward to Sundays after he's meetings to come home and see Ally. He has struggled for a very long time with her death and I believe he still is. Sunday, in his talk, he compared his struggle to the Conference talk about the Current Bush. Or maybe it is just the Current Bush story. The gardner cut the current bush and thought that he heard the current bush say "Why did you cut me back?" I was growing so well." My dad said that he was like the current bush. Heavenly Father cut him back because he needed to grow stronger and learn from his trial. I wished I could have been there to here his talk. Mom said that he did a great job.

Monday, May 16, 2011

THought of my Girls Yesterday

Yesterday Josh and I went to our new ward in Eagle Mountain. We we very welcomed. Everyone was nice and came up and introduced themselves. I was very proud of myself that I didn't talk about my Angel children to any of my ward neighbors at church.

The only thing that got me was we sang I Am A Child Of God as the closing song for Relief Society. A song sung at both of my daughters funerals. I started to cry. I managed to keep my crying to a minimum and thankfully know one noticed my tears. That song gets me every time. I came out of Relief Society, hoping to run in to Josh quickly and leave so not to cause any questions, when I ran into the bishop. He told me to make an appointment to see him. I had mentioned to him about my concealing and he wanted to meet with me. He noticed that I had been crying and asked if everything was ok. I didn't want to alarm him so I told him that everything was fine.